“I Vow” is a musical statement from when I closed one chapter of my life, opening myself to many other chapters.
I had been wrestling with how to leave a music director position that was no longer satisfying. I kept shaking my head and saying, “This is what I know. I know this life of service from the inside out. I do my job well, and am recognized for my contributions. Isn’t this enough?” It wasn’t enough. This slow-growing disturbance became a vow to say “no” to what was no longer alive within me, making room for saying “yes” to resonant places to be cultivated. This piece was performed once in a group of leaders who were facing similar dilemmas, and that performance allowed for an exploration of their similarly emerging inclinations. For me, simply composing it had opened possibilities for the immediate and far-ranging future.